One Point Perspective
This last week has left me pondering existenialism once again. I’m beginning to think this is a foundational insistence on behalf of my character. Pittsburgh has experienced a seemingly endless onslought of grey, cloudy skies- these rainy seasons strike the city at least once or twice a year and seem to always be marginally longer and longer than those that came beore it.
I’ve come to realize that my mood and general mental state can be very affected by the state of the weather on a given day, and needless to say these drizzly days come with an internal struggle against apathy and general disillusionment.
I’ve more or less confirmed my venture to Australia come this October, which has largely summoned a lot of excitement for me. I think, however, the consequence of such a rousing life decision has been a general sense of temporality with just about everything in my life right now. Uncharacteristically, I find myself disinterested in starting any meaningful romantic relationship, my part-time job is feeling increasingly monotonous and the only thing that breaks up my routine is going on shoots (something that I wish I could afford to do more of).
For the first time in my adult life, my network of friends and colleagues is being stretched and redistributed all over the globe. This comes with a sense of pride and exhilaration from all parties, but the feeling of independence that formulates with adulthood is starting to be tinged with a certain note of solitude. Even in my own home, amongst my roommates, we have begin to see less and less of each other on a given week. All of us are becoming more involved in our own lives and ambitions.
I’ve been back into my readings of Victor Frankl (perhaps that is a source of this existentialism I’ve been exploring) and it has got me thinking about the great comedy of life- Truly, we are all on our own solo adventures. The companions and friends we make along the way add color to an otherwise dull exploration, but at the end of the day the only being whose happiness and contentment is up to your jurisdiction is one’s own.
That feels like just about enough philosophical rambling for one day. I’ve recently invested in a 6x7 analog camera and trying to understand its inner-workings has proven to be a worthy project to occupy me for the time being. I’m looking forward to sharing some shots from that one. In the meantime, here are some shots I got a few weeks ago on 35mm. I’ve been experimenting with Cinestill 50D. I find the low ASA can make for a bit of a difficult time with finding opportunities to just ‘grab your camera and head out the door,’ but I do enjoy the bluish coloration and the floaty aberations it generates. I hope you enjoy these pictures, I imagine these are the types of photographs I will be looking back on fondly when I finally find myself in the land down under.
Cheers.
